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Sunday, August 07, 2005
Nagsimula ang lahat sa paniniwalang "The best things in life are free."
Nag-shopping galore tuloy ako ng pangarap. Isip dito, isip doon. Pilit isinisingit sa mumunting isipan ang posibilidad at kahihinatnan. Di ko alam na mauuwi pala ang lahat sa kahibangan.
Libre naman talaga ang mangarap di ba? Kung di ako naniwala eh di sana hindi ko naipagbuhol-buhol ang aking mga pangarap at umabot sa punto na hirap na hirap ko nang maibalik ang realidad, hirap na hirap nang maibalik ang dati.
Pero sa palagay ko, may kinalaman rin ang pananahi sa aking pangarap. Kung di ko natutunang manahi, eh dapat di ko rin alam ang magbuhol. Parang sinabi mo na ring matabang ang lasa ng pagkain dahil marunong kang magluto.
Akala ko kasi ang dali-dali ng lahat. Marami ngang namamatay sa maling akala. Sabi kasi ng nanay ko madali lang manahi. Kaya simula nang matutunan kong gumamit ng sinulid at karayom sa tulong niya at ng Home Economics titser ko nung Grade 5, ang dali-dali lang tagpian ang mga butas na aking makita sa t-shirt, shorts, at iba pang kasuotan. Ang dali lang tahiin ang lahat ng mga tastas at butas. Ang dali-daling dugtungan ang naiwan o burdahan ang simpleng kasuotan. Tuwang-tuwa pa nga ako sa pagsuot ng sinulid sa kaliit-liit na butas ng karayom. Ipinagmamalaki ko pa na kayang-kaya kong isuot ang sinulid ng hindi gumagamit nung *ano nga ba ang tawag dun sa manipis na hugis diamond na kinakapitan ng sinulid para madaling lumusot sa butas ng karayom?*
Di ko alam na ang dami ko palang magagamit na "metaphor" sa aking buhay mula sa pananahi. Para kasing sa kalagayan ko nung nakaraang mga linggo, para na rin akong nagdaan sa butas ng karayom. Hay! Kung maiintindihan lang ng karamihan ang mga kadahilanan sa mga sitwasyong nakaraan. Pero bakit ba kailangan magbigay ng eksplanasyon?
Ayoko na rin sanang magbigay ng eksplanasyon dito kung bakit isinusulat ko ang mga bagay na ito. Ang alam ko lang, mayroon akong napakagandang natutunan sa pagsubok na ito. Nag-Friendster ang aking kaibigan at nadaanan niya sa isang page ang linya mula sa isang tula ni Edna St. Vincent Millay. Ako daw ang una niyang naalala. Di ako ko-kontra. Tama siya. Sa palagay ko, ito na ang tanging makakatanggal ng mga buhol sa aking buhay. Pamagat nito ay "An Ancient Gesture".
And more than once: you can't keep weaving all day
And undoing it all through the night;
Posted at 01:58 pm by eloisa_elinia
 |  |  | mmmqx August 9, 2005 03:41 PM PDT
ah, tama, kay marjorie evasco pala, kaya familiar yung name. nabasa ko na nga yun, nung unang panahon... miss ko na rin... well, wala, kasi hindi naman ako tumutula eh. :P |  |
  |  |  | elinia August 9, 2005 12:06 AM PDT
tina- palibhasa ang dami mong mala-basahan na damit
ida- oo nga noh! nakaligtaan ko. maganda talaga yung line sobra. kahit ako napanganga dahil swak na swak sa stiwasyon ng buhay ko ngayon. dreamweaver, tula siya ni marjorie evasco, maganda din.
hay miss ko nang tumula :( |  |
  |  |  | mmmqx August 8, 2005 10:07 PM PDT
meron kang isang paragraph na walang purple highlight. wala lang, nagpapansin lang. :P
etto... si mrs. espiritu din ba ang teacher mo sa h.e. nung grade 5?
ang ganda nung line ni edna st.vincent millay. ^_^ tsaka yung title ng entry na'to. |  |
  |  |  | tina_stars August 8, 2005 08:26 AM PDT
yung, blogskin ko! sige ka wala kang chiksilog! hehe... |  |
  |  |  | tina_stars August 8, 2005 08:25 AM PDT
sige nga tahiin mo mga damit kong pambahay! hehe...
bulag ka na ngayon hehe :) |  |
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SILENT ALL THESE YEARS times like these... infinite sadness
"The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to know her and be known in return"
Eloisa - equanimity, melancholy, freedom
Eloi-loi - nonchalant, funky, impulsive
Elinia - fun, childlike, crazy
Born on the 14th of December 1983. Thought to be a child prodigy. Prefers cats to dogs. Non-coffee drinker. Loves to ride the space shuttle. Graduated without honors. Waits for the black hole sun to wash away the rain. Sings rock songs in videoke. Can read Korean characters. Has a strong affinity for isopropyl alcohol. Poetry and music addict. Can draw stick people. Lousy handwriting. Loves pink and black. Introvert. Introspective. Pizzapasta lover.
These are a few of my favorite things
Apple, oranges, yellow, pink, black, neon, nail polish, chucks, long skirts, pillows (chocolate snack), marshmallows, rainbow, portico, headbands, studs, gig shirts, umbrella, handkerchief, post-its, hairclips, white visor, piano, guitar, drums, printed socks, boy bawang, mernell’s cake, plastic bags, paper bags, anti-diarrhea, baby cologne, baby soap, powercard, full house, bi's pics, seok’s card, hula-hoops, Acete de manzanilla, scrabble, chess, pictures, neruda’s love poems, journals, pumpkins' albums, arirang tv, dictionary, receipts.
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Gallery - my pics, my own
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10 things I hate about me
1. I can never appreciate flowers. Butterfly phobic (or whatever the right term for this) = distance myself from anything that they love.
2. I am a certified garbage collector. I collect receipts, plastic bags, paper bags, Tower records and other record store’s wrappings for CD’s, memos, passed-notes (from school during a boring class), quizzes and other activities that involve papers from my favorite subjects, etc.
3. I can easily fall in love (tsk, tsk... )
4. I bite my handkerchiefs (so they usually appear worn and frayed).
5. I am an introvert (so what the hell am I doing this blog for? And why in the world does my profile appear on Friendster?) ... Nah, John Donne’s right, no man is an island (duh?!!)
6. I am a spendthrift when in comes to books and CD’s
7. I don’t care about new clothes and fashion. My mom jokingly tells me every time I would be in need of a new attire or piece of clothing for a certain event or occasion, I can tie up or sew together all my books and CD’s to have something to wear. Nyahaha!
8. I am a paradox of everything and that is why my life is always a clear confusion.
9. I do things that are not supposed to be done, miss people you’re not supposed to miss, read books that are not supposed to be read, love people you are not supposed to love but in the end...it doesn’t even matter
10. I am always a wannabe.
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Dreamweaver- stitching life's glitches
Makulay Ba Ang Mundo?- colorful life, beautiful life
Takot Ka Ba Sa Dilim?- multu-multuhan at ang sariling multo.
Antipara - luminaw ang tingin, sa katotohanan ay magising.
Still in the Mood...more serious topics- serious mood, serious talks.
Walking Contradiction - As below, so above, As above, so below
How to make a TORI-ble poem- thanks to Tori Amos, I had the urge to write a terrible poem.
Ipagpatuloy ang sawing pangarap- a poem for the Wowowee victims.
Nawawala, Nagtatago, Nagtataka, Nagtatanong- entry inspired by the First Quarter Storm documentary.
Short Cuts topics- new hair cut, new life cuts.
Post-Valentines Entry/Trauma-rama- because of sleepless nights.
My,my,my, is's Monday- the obvious student/worker's Monday-grudge.
MedioRock: Pinoyrock or Pinoycrap topics- the inevitable mediocrity in pinoyrock.
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Black Day- a day of paranoia, a day of melancholia.
Leche Plan- planning for nothing.
Pontio Pilato- isopropyl alcohol related to the nearing holy week.
What Dreams May Come- dream-critique, Gabriel Garcia Marquez-inspired.
Halo! Halo!- on Twisted Halo's mournful disbandment.
All That I Can's Leave Behind- meandering thoughts related to my resignation.
Do You Like Spaghetti?- my favorite food makes sense.
Crayontivity- the need to color life.
The Friendly One- on trying my best to be.
Comfortably Numb- a take on Scorsese's The Departed.
Multu-Multuhan- the season to scare and be scared.
Just My Luck: Compliments, Engagement and a 10-peso coin- what a lucky day!
Takbo, Pilipinas, Takbo- politics, politics, politics.
The Great Depression- am I really supposed to be teaching?
Heatstroke- hating summer, big time! .
Lakwatsera- exploring Manila.
Spidey Goes Emo- on Peter Parker's haircut.
Leksyon ng Eleksyon- on my one vote's failure to make a difference.
I Get So Weak- aging people are my Achilles heel
Like A Stone- writer's block, writer's stoned
Age of Innocence, Age of Indolence - does age matter in music
for God's creations.
on Twisted Halo's Miron- sa mga rakistang nagtiis sa pagtuturo ng tungkol sa pagtitiis
Runny Nose-phobic - Mulawin and Stairway to Heaven, not a good combination
Illiterature - being workaholic makes us all "illiterate"
It's Raining In My House Part Three - Rain/Bi's invasion in my life. sarang hae Jeong Ji-Hoon!
On Full House ... Again - the greatest Korean drama ever made
The World Is A Vampire - the cruelty of Pumpkins' disbandment
The Massacre of Hip-hop - of why i hate hip-hop nowadays
Isang Gabing Di Makatulog Dahil Sa Nawawalang Hikaw - isa sa mga mababaw na pangyayari sa aking buhay
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My Weird and Wonderful Weekend - weird + wonderful = weekend
Still Water Runs Deep - why people should not take me for granted
Mga Katanungan - questions of an inquisitve mind
Where Have All The Good Men Gone? - why filipinos continue to live in an ivory tower
Pumapatak na naman ang Ulan - some thoughts on the rainy season
Etymology of Elinia - why the hell was my name changed?
When It Is Counted Sweetest - mernel's cake and familial love
Simula nang Makakain ng Lamok - one of the few realizations i had in my life
Cleanliness is Godliness - alcohol-maniac, being ms. clean and green
On War of the Worlds - one of the few movies of tom cruise that i truly appreciate
The World According to Troy - troy who? guidelines of how to live a troy-like life
Waiting for the Bus - all because of the rally, ely singing in my head again
Kalayaan Para Sa Ating Lahat - is freedom really overrated?
The Importance of Having the Mongols - on writing with pencils
To Blog or Not To Blog - is the greatest question of all writers who do have blogs
Is My Life Buhaghag Free- metaphor for the tangles in life
25 cents-worth Entry - in times like these... 25 cents matters.
The Light - drama, drama and more drama about my life and the road not taken
Pinoyrock and the Camp - music moves, music grooves, music blues huhuhu
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